I know that everything inside you is aching for a miracle. I’ve felt the disappointment, shame, and seeming abandonment by God. I remember how hard it is to look past your tears. Dear sister, I’ve been there, and I can tell you this with certainty: Your infertility isn’t about you, just as mine wasn’t about me.
Advent is about waiting. But really, just like our season of waiting, it’s also about the end, the prize, the Great Hope. Advent is about an arrival, the coming. What’s so incredibly hard about our waiting is that we have no such promise.
New team member shares her own journey… As I was waiting, though I didn’t doubt God’s existence, I questioned His goodness, planting this intense desire in my heart while not enabling me to fulfill it. Despite my distrust, He led me through grief and showed me far more goodness He had in store for this season. By His divine orchestration, He brought new friends into my life to shoulder the burden of infertility and to use my pain for His glory.
No matter what we investigated, what types of doctors we went to, what kinds of procedures, surgeries, medications and hormones, no amount of yoga or acupuncture, vacations or relaxation we tried… nothing was working. We just plain and simple could not conceive.
Meet Waiting in Hope Leader: Terri Eastepp, Nacogdoches, Texas Local Leader as she shares her story of infertility, health issues, and waiting.
How do we Hope? How can we be hopeful during and through all the no's, not yet, waiting? Are you feeling cautiously optimistic or some people say cautiously hopeful? We here all the time "I'm feeling sort of hopeful but not getting my hopes up about this cycle, this treatment, this ____." In doing so and taking such a "off hands" approach are we putting God in a box with our feeble, little un-hopeful prayers and petitions... so what do we do then?