Because that’s what isolation really is - darkness. It’s keeping your struggle, your pain, your desires hidden so that you feel all alone. That’s why I wanted to share this post today – even from the midst of the struggle - because you are not alone. No matter how hurt you may be feeling or how much you would rather just hide or deal with it yourself. You are not alone. We weren’t meant to face trials in this life alone.
When she gets pregnant, and I am still trying. When she has the baby shower, and I have nothing to celebrate. When she delivers a beautiful child, and I experience a loss. This questions creeps up on me no matter how much I guard my heart. Why her and not me?
(PCOS) is defined as a complex endocrine system disorder with no clear cause. PCOS is the most common endocrine system disorder among women of reproductive age.
t’s that time of year when you see pencils and backpacks on sale at the store, when buses roll by your street and parents hustle their kids in the car after posing for pictures at the front door.
Whether you’ve been waiting a while or just started to realize “this might be harder than I originally thought,” it doesn’t take long to realize we all need a companion on this journey of infertility.
During the first year of trying to conceive, I was able to remain optimistic month after month while Jordan felt the disappointment intensely. I remember her crying at night, “What’s wrong with me?” , “Why can’t I get pregnant?” , “What’s wrong with my body?” I remember praying specifically, “God, whatever the issue is, please let it be me, not Jordan.” I didn’t want her to put the blame on herself. I didn’t want her to feel the pain of being the “cause” of infertility.